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Thursday morning

First let me thank all those who sent me birthday wishes.  Of course with face book absolutely everyone, including google, sends you greetings which is rather lovely.  It is interesting to think that people you could pass in the street and not recognise have sent you greetings.  The boys gave me a lovely day and I didn't lift a finger all day.  I didn't peel an onion or boil a pan of water absolutely nothing.  I was fed, watered and cherished all day.  The only failure was the one I expected so I was not disappointed and refused to let it make any difference to my day.
In my search for a car I have been looking on Autotrader and have looked at so many makes and models I am now completely confused.  In the end I thought about why I am changing the car. It is not because I don't like it, I love it to bits, it is just getting old and going to start costing money.  So I think I have made the decision and I am going to look at a much younger version on Friday same car just an …

Wednesday morning

Good morning all and it is a good one breakfast in bed curtesy of the boys, lunch is organised I will be having a massive prawn cocktail and a nice cheese board which James has already prepared. When I woke there was a huge box of chocolates waiting for me again curtesy of the boys.  Yes today I am 68 where has all the time gone?
Yesterday I had a visit from social services and an extremely nice lady came to have a chat through what they can do to help me.  She has suggested that an occupational therapist is the best option as Mike is capable but unwilling and if someone does the job for him that will just play into his hands of being helpless.  She also suggested a life line which will allow us to go out and leave him unattended for a few hours and as I haven't been out of the house for weeks I am really looking forward to that. It means I can go car hunting with both boys which would be really nice or maybe we could even go shooting I think I can still remember which end of the…

Tuesday Morning

Good morning all.  Well I have finally thrown in the towel and asked social services to give me some help with Michael.  After spending the weekend trying everything to get him to move and failing when the physio came he suddenly managed to walk quite well. At that that point I blew a gasket and phoned for help.  There comes a point when you have to realise you are beaten and I have reached that point.  Antibiotics make you depressed anyway and I feel pretty down at the moment but nothing that wont come out in the wash.
The sun is shining and I have planted all the creeping phlox and also a batch of heucheras of various colours which should fill in some of the bare soil.  With any luck the boys will be taking me out to buy a new [to me] car some time this week.  I have also organised the ingredients to make a big pot of bolognese sauce which will make several meals to put in the freezer.  I have also discovered that by adding some red beans and bucket loads of cumin you can get away …

Monday morning

Good morning all.  Here we go into what looks like another wet week according to the weather forecast.  Do you remember a few years back we were being advised to plant draught tolerant plants I am very glad I ignored that advice it would seem more likely we need aquatic plants!!!!!  However I for one am not complaining as watering the garden is a tedious job I can well do without. Drying the laundry is a bit hit and miss but I can live with that.
Yesterday I thought I would have a trawl around Aldi but when I got there and found that the traffic was backed up for miles trying to get in the car park I turned around and came home fortunately there was nothing that I desperately needed.  We are surrounded by supermarkets so I could have gone elsewhere if necessary.  Hopefully today it will be a bit quieter and I can potter around in peace and search for some inspiration.
My friends from Bristol had gone abroad for months in their motorhome but decided to come home as he is not very well…

Sunday morning

Mea culpa, mea culpa, mea maxima culpa.  Yes it was me that provoked the rain gods by hanging a line of washing I'm so sorry if I ruined your barbecue/fete etc.  Anyway my newly planted phlox got a good watering in.  Today started off nice and sunny but it is now as black as your hat over head so we are probably in for more thunder and lightening and another deluge.
Mike is still being difficult and we are trying everything to get him up and moving but he scuttles back to bed at every opportunity.  He likes the door to his room left open so we have been closing it in the hope he will get up and open it but he has now given that up - just nothing works.  If only he would give up fighting us things could be so much better for all of us.  Of course with my nursing background I can see what is to come and it terrifies me.
Anyway enough doom and gloom I am much better and feeling more like myself only one day of antibiotics to go and I am finished.  Fortunately I not suffered any side…

Saturday morning

The dogs have been swimming and James has done all the morning chores and I got breakfast in bed. I am finally beginning to realise that I can let go and the world will not come crashing down round my ears.  All the phlox plants got planted.  I decided that though they were small the ground is now warm and wet so they have two choices live or die.  In my experience most things want to live unless of course they are very expensive plants then they are suicidal.
What a lovely lunch we had yesterday half a lobster each with a blob of mayo and a tossed green salad what more can you ask of life? For D'Lynn's benefit I had better explain that I have been cultivating my fish monger for many years and am a very good customer.  I have even been out on their boat fishing with them and helped out gutting and preparing fish.  They supply the local restaurants so they don't mind dropping stuff off to my house and always ring me if they have anything really good or unusual.  At the mom…

Out we go Friday

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I must admit I was surprised however if that is what the people want then so shall it be.  I wonder just how much of the vote reflects the total mistrust of politicians in general.  Anyway, we have made two people very happy Vladimir Putin and Donald the chump Trump does this bode well? I'm not so sure. Anyway I have said my piece now lets see what sort of a pigs breakfast we make of the exiting probably without Scotland.
Now on to things which really matter like what to have for lunch on a lovely sunny day.  Some sort of salad I think.  I really fancy a caesar salad and as luck would have it my fish monger is delivering me two lobsters so they will make a nice supper.  I have just had a parcel arrive with 50 plants so I think I will be spending a few hours on my knees planting. I have gone for ground cover plants as I now have plenty of bare earth.  This is creeping phlox.
I don't suppose it will ever look this good but you get the general idea
 The antibiotics have done the…

Thursday morning

I had a really decent nights sleep last night which makes a change I came to a couple of times to hear the rain thundering on the roof but went straight back to sleep.  Everywhere this morning is sopping wet but the rain has ceased for the time being.  The antibiotics have kicked in and I feel much better in myself but I do know this is the danger time when you think you are cured and promptly over do things.  So today will be a pottering around dressing gown day no window cleaning I promise Joy!!! Sadly I think I will have to dress to go to the poling station but that will only be a five minute job.
Mike is due to have a visit from his psychiatric nurse at ten this morning however I really don't hold out much hope for any change in his behaviour.  Yesterday he tried to persuade each member of the family to pour his a glass of squash - he was sitting with the squash, a glass and a jug of water on his table.  Independently we each commented that his arms were functional so he coul…

Wenesday morning

Good morning all. Yesterday saw me up and pottering not doing much but participating I also had a major ablution session which made me feel better, I might still be a shaggy pony but at least I am a clean one.  I am being very careful not to over do things and I still feel feak and weeble bed rest is all very well but it does leave you debilitated.  I had a better night last night with longer periods of undisturbed sleep.  The major coughing has abated but I managed to breath a grain of rice and the repercussions were horrendous.  I definitely don't recommend snorting rice!!!!!  I'm sure you have all done something similar so you will know what I mean. Air is for breathing and food for eating never confuse the two.
The weather today is dull and damp but not cold so it feels muggy and sticky - not nice. The occasional waft of breeze is very welcome.  The bin men have taken the two huge wheelie bins of green waste from the garden clearance, the dry stuff was burned off and the …

Tuesday morning

Good morning all at last I have some antibiotics and can start to knock this chest infection on the head. I thought I was just tired and worn out but I was coming down with the plague.  OK maybe that is a bit of an exaggeration but that is how it feels.

Mikes physio came to see him yesterday and was disappointed to learn he had not made any progress because he is not doing his exercises so he going to send a different one in the vain hope that it might make a difference.  I don't know about you but I would want to at least be able to walk to the toilet.

The boys are looking after me very well and making sure I drink plenty and take my meds on time.  The sun is shining today so that makes me feel better.

Monday morning

sorry to have abandoned you but I have a nasty chest infection. Boys are doing a great job of looking after me and Mike.  Will be back when I feel a bit better

Friday morning

Good morning all well here we are at the end of another week.  It has been so busy me feet have hardly touched the ground. Despite the weather the laundry still has to be done and I am afraid I haven't risked putting it out to dry as the sudden downpours don't give you enough notice to go and get it in before it is soaked so tumble dryer it is.  This morning the sky is heavy and overcast and looking as if we are due for a deluge with that strange yellow light you get before it rains.  However I am not complaining as it has washed in all the salt that I put on the weeds and they are beginning to die back. They are mostly on the patio so once they are dead all I have to do is sweep them up.
Mike is being as difficult as he can be so I have moved into tough love mode and I am refusing to do any jobs he can do himself. This of course is completely against my nature and makes me feel really bad but I know it is the right thing to do.  He likes his door open so yesterday I kept shu…

Thursday morning

Good morning all.  Yesterday was another day of coming and going with people coming to look at raising the arm chair and more cushions being delivered.  I thought today was to be free of intrusions but no the chair people are coming back with different stuff to raise the chair as apparently we have posh castors on them.  Who knew!!!  In my world a castor is a castor.
I kind of hit the buffers yesterday as I was so tired all I wanted to do was sleep fortunately the boys stepped in and helped out so actually I went to bed really early and slept like the dead for most of the night.  Gone are the days when I could work round the clock and still stay vertical.  When I was working it was not unusual to work a 1pm to 9pm shift followed by being on call overnight and working through the night followed by and early shift, finally getting off duty at 5pm the next day and having an hours drive home.  Now that I look back on it I must have been dangerous but that was the norm in those days.
Toda…

Wednesday morning

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Good morning all.
 new blackout curtain

Sorry about the quality of the photos but hopefully you will get the general idea.  The photos were taken at night so the light is all wrong.  I have just caught myself out being an idiot I woke at 3 again with a panic attack took my pill and went back to sleep long before the pill could have worked so I guess this is the placebo effect in full force.  Still I don't care if it works. Sleeping in a darkened room is a novelty for me, it certainly feels cosy.  Dan is back from the groomers and he is only half the dog I will try to get a photo of him but he is just too full of beans at the moment charging around and not in the mood to have his photo taken - still I don't suppose I would want photos of me in my underwear.  Tubby was so pleased to have him back even if he did smell of butterscotch.  With regard to Tubby as a name he is a black and white staff and my first dog when I was a child was also black and white and called Tubby so it j…

Tuesday morning

Good morning all.  Lets start with me I woke at 3am with a panic attack so the added stress has pushed me over the edge but I took my tablet and went back to sleep - thank goodness for the pills. Why now? you ask well yesterday was a bad day Mike was in a mood and refusing to get out of bed he ate better but was very bull headed about moving despite the physios best effort - what a waste of time.  The district nurse came and gave his last B12 injection and to remove his clips.  The wound is beautifully healed and clean and dry so physically all is well.  I tried to explain that lying bed will result in hypostatic pneumonia which Mike said he would rather have so what can you do!!!!
Sandy came to visit and brought me some more coffee which I was in desperate need of and she also brought me some tomatoes.  Denzil had brought me loads of strawberries so we all ate strawberries till we looked like them and I still have a bowl full left for today so you can imagine just how many there wer…

Monday morning

Good morning all yesterday was a better day Mike is trying to cooperate which makes a huge difference and he has started to eat with a bit more pleasure.  I started his day off with an egg flip made with one egg half a pint of full fat milk 2 teaspoons of sugar and a tablespoon of brandy all whizzed up to a frothy drink.  That went down very well sometimes the old remedies are still the best. Moving his analgesics up a notch has also made him better able to do his exercises all of which has raised his spirits a little and I am hoping that he is finally getting the message that if he does what he is told things will get better quicker. D'Lynn as I am in charge of emptying the urinal I can check his hydration status and make sure he is drinking enough.  A lot of elderly people don't drink because it will mean a trip to the toilet which they would rather avoid so the urinal means this is not a problem. He has a two litre jug of water which I expect to refill daily given the quan…

Sunday Morning

Good morning all well here we are at the end of another week.  The weather forecast was dead right yesterday so I managed to get some washing dry in the morning but in the afternoon there was a huge downpour which washed in all the salt I had scattered on the patio.  Hopefully there is enough to kill all the weeds.
I phoned the respiratory team and told them that Mike needed an urgent referral as the physio was concerned about his pretty awful chest.  So yesterday a letter arrived and they are going to come and see him on 14th JULY If that is an urgent referral then I am a monkeys uncle.  The district nurse supervised me giving him his anticoagulant injection and I pleased to report I haven't lost my touch it is a bit like riding a bicycle you never forget.  This means that she will not have to come today I can go ahead and give the drug. they will have to come tomorrow as I don't have any syringes so I cannot give the B12 injection and I believe his clips are due out as well…

Saturday Morning

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Good morning all especially D'Lynn it is so nice to receive comments as it gives me an added item to talk about.  Today they have forecast rain so I shot out and put plenty of salt on the patio weeds in anticipation.  I use salt instead of glyphosate as it is kinder to the dogs they usually give it one sniff then splutter for a while and leave it alone.  One nose full of salt seems to be enough.  I also raced about doing laundry again in anticipation of the coming rain but now I have two big baskets of ironing instead, still nice job for a wet day.
I had put in an order to the great British meat company which arrived yesterday so I have reloaded the freezer.  The meat arrives in large packs which I then breakdown into manageable amounts before freezing.  I have kept out some steak mince and some pork mince so I can have a bit of a cooking day. I thought I might make a big batch of meat balls which are always useful to have hanging around, alternatively I could make a big batch of…

Friday Morning

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What a difference a day makes. Two very nice young people a girl and a boy turned up and boy did they work hard all day so much so that I felt obligated to go and do a few jobs myself so the pond pump got cleaned and I stripped out last years tomato plants from the green house.  All my vegetable beds have been covered with weed suppressant membrane so they should stay weed free.  The thirty foot width of the garden which had been reduced to five has now been restored.  Yes they are expensive but so worth it you really do get what you pay for.




I was so fired up when they were done that I have ordered a good selection of ground cover plants which will arrive at the end of July and hopefully they will cover the bare ground which is now weed free.  It was really nice to talk things over with people who know what they are talking about.  
The district nurse came by twice to give Mike injections of vitamins and anticoagulants which he needs as he is eating next to nothing.  I am a bit disa…

Thursday morning

Good morning all yesterday was bedlam however it all sorted out by bed time.  The roof is mended and Mike is back home.  He is largely immobile so a significant amount of physio will be required. At the moment he can barely get from bed to chair without significant help.  We now have two Zimmer frames and all sorts of drugs for him to take however there are several which are by injection only so I guess they will be sending the district nurse to deal with those.  I made a point of not letting on  about my nursing status as I know they will only dump more work on me if they can.  When I read through his discharge notes it says he had a hemiarthroplasty which is quite different from a dynamic hip screw and a much more significant surgical intervention which would account for his immobility.  It really would help if they would give you correct information still I suppose to the lay public it is just a mended hip so I don't suppose they think it makes any difference.  
Today the gard…

Wednesday morning

Good morning all so summer is over already!!!  Yesterday started sunny and warm but soon turned to rain and cold again.  I ran round like a mad thing in the morning getting things sorted out before Mikes return.  Today I have a roofer coming to sort out the valleys on the roof which need repointing so I had better get that done before we have a leaking roof.  There is always something that needs doing and booking people to do jobs is difficult as if they are any good they are very busy.  Anyway as luck would have it the roofer finished a job early yesterday and asked if he could come today so I have agreed, at least he will be out of the way by the time the gardeners come tomorrow weather permitting.  The forecast is just for cloud which is fine but looking at today it does look ominously like more rain.
I made a sort of shepherds pie yesterday but in the absence of mash I sliced the already cooked new spuds and laid them on the top to go nice and brown in the oven.  In the end it wa…

Tuesday Morning

Good morning all first a bit of good news it looks like the caravan has sold so I am over the moon but the money wont be in the bank until the end of the month but it is a huge weight off my mind.

I went to see Mike and have a chat with the OT with regard to his discharge from hospital.  They are coming to the house this morning to check if he needs any aids to help him get on and off the toilet etc.  My front room looks like a hospital ward anyway with all the many and various bits and pieces he needs to make his life easy.  Now I come to think of it my front room has spent more time as bedroom than it ever did as a sitting room.  First with Mikes mum who came to us when she was on the blink, then with James when he was wheelchair bound and now with Mike.  Still I suppose I am lucky that I have such an adaptable home.  It does however mean that I cannot have anyone to stay as we are packed to the rafters.
The sun is shining this morning so I am hopeful that the gardeners will have g…

Monday Morning

Good morning all today we have lost the lovely sunshine and have clouds instead but it is a little bit warmer which is all good.  I managed to get loads of washing dry on the line yesterday much of which does not need ironing so I am very happy.  I also took a trip to the clothes dump and got rid of a whole load of clothes that I no longer need or want most are well worn but still very serviceable.  
The half leg of lamb will be on todays menu as we are all here for lunch.  I am intending a sort of tray bake of vegetables with the butterflied meat on top so that is a sort of all in one roast.  With the varying numbers for meals I am largely making it up as I go along.  Fortunately with the years of experience of cooking I can usually throw something together that will pass muster.  The boys are not fussy eaters and will eat whatever I put in front of them.  
I must say that with Mike in hospital I suddenly realised just how exhausted I am and I have been sleeping a lot.  It is not ph…

Sunday morning

Good morning all and it is good the sun is shining and we are in double figures for temperature which makes a change from the freezing wet days of late.  Yesterday I got most of my jobs done and interestingly I reinsured the car now the usual thing is I get a quote for a stupid amount from my current insurer so I trawl around to find the best deal and when I phone the current insurer they invariably say oh we could have matched that.  This time I suggested we save me some time and them a customer and how about they give the bottom line figure immediately - this they did so I was able to agree the price and get the deal done.  I suppose they send out the high figures in the hope that people are too lazy to find a better one and just pay. 
I have been looking around at cars to see what I can find that might suit my needs, I still need a big vehicle for the dogs but perhaps not as big as my Landrover Discovery.  I have been looking at the Freelander 2 which is a nice vehicle but they ar…

Saturday Morning

Good morning all yesterday was a good day in the end.  First the car flew through its MOT so that is one good thing.  I then went and saw Mike who is doing fine except for his chest which is terrible but that is par for the course.  His brother Jeff also came to visit him in the evening and was granted almost an hours visit then he came here to report and get a cup of tea before setting off for home. Len and Margaret came to pay me a visit and see how I was getting on and finally the garden people rang and will be coming next week either Wednesday or Thursday they will confirm on Monday once I have paid the deposit into their account.  The phone rang off the hook with friends checking on me so I feel very cared for.  I finally got the ironing finished so now I can put on more washing.  Not that its likely to dry on the line as it is so wet and foggy this morning I guess it will have to be a tumble dryer job.  I feel easier in my mind now that some of the major items are out of the wa…

Friday morning

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Good morning all and today is MOT day.  It is grey and misty out sided and the temperature is in single figures.

The dogs went swimming yesterday and Dan found a really good place to dry off - nothing like nice white sheets to dry yourself on.


Denzil did a nice big shop for us while I waited for the phone call from the gardeners who didn't ring till quite late.  Apparently they have been knocked off schedule by the weather so they are going to ring today at 11.30 to have a proper chat now that they have had time to look at the photos I sent them.  Going by what Mark used to accomplish I think I need two blokes for a whole day to get the garden back into some sort of order.  The garden feels narrower and narrower as the shrubs get bigger and bigger but nothing some judicious cutting back will not sort out.  Anyway I hope I am not going to have to wait much longer before we get something done.  
I was a bit of a sloth yesterday all I wanted to do was to sleep and everything was an …

Thursday morning

Good morning all.  Thank you so much for all your kind words I had a fine day yesterday poor Shiona had done a shoulder so we occupied our nursing skills on her shoulder problem - analgesics, hot and cold compresses, massage with lavender oil and rest.  Interestingly Shiona had brought Sue up to running speed before I arrived and the first thing she asked me was if I was a catholic.  The answer was no but I was convent educated which explained my guilty conscience which has dogged me all my life.  It is the first time I have put two and two together and realised that I was imbued with guilt at the age of six and it is still with me.  I have a very strong sense of duty which largely supersedes my own wants and needs.  
We went to local pub for lunch so Shiona didn't have to cook and when I got home I was exhausted.  I put myself to bed and slept for 12 hours straight.  Denzil rang to see how Mike was doing and he is up to his usual tricks the physio get him out into a chair and he…

Wednesday morning

I had a terrible day yesterday fighting with my conscience - my heart telling me one thing and my head telling me another.  All my friends, whose opinion I value, have told me not to visit the hospital and let Mike find out just which side his bread is buttered he is safe and cared for.  This is against the grain for me and has caused me great anxiety but as time passes I am feeling a bit easier.  It is interesting that not one of his family have bothered to phone and find out how he is.  He has successfully alienated everyone except me.  I am very angry with him and I don't think it is sensible to see him while I am so hacked off with him.  That he is injured is entirely his own fault and he needs to understand that there are consequences for his behaviour and I am not going to come running every time he does something stupid.
Anyway I am off to Shiona's today where I am also meeting up with another nursing friend so no doubt I will be read the riot act.  I know I am partial…